INTO THE LIGHT
The
hurricane came and went without any harm to us. But the one within
me continued to gather force. It seemed strange, from my point of
view, for all the people around me seemed calm. Even the doctor was
no longer speaking much to me about the Lord, for I wasn't seeing
him regularly. Bonnie was quietly supportive, but we really didn't
say much about it. Mike and my other friends went on with life. It
was "business as usual" around me, but definitely not that way
inside of me.
THE HIGHEST MASONIC DEGREE
Easter was approaching and one quiet morning I was at home
recuperating from the second operation when the doorbell rang. It
was a special delivery letter from the Supreme Council in
Washington, notifying me that I had been selected for the 33rd
Degree.
I could hardly believe it was true! This honor is one most Masons
never even think of receiving. It was too much, too far out of
reach, beyond limits of reality. It was unreal to think I had
actually been selected. It was an honor just to be considered for
this ultimate degree and I had actually been selected, chosen by
that small and powerful group, the Supreme Council of the 33rd
Degree.
I called Bonnie to share the good news with her. In talking with
her, I surprised myself by asking her if she thought I should accept
it "What a strange thing to ask her," I thought. But before I could
contemplate it she said, "Why, sure you should accept it. You have
worked so hard for so long to get there - by all means you should
accept it."
So I returned my acceptance immediately and began making plans
for the trip.
I MADE IT ON MY OWN
With plenty of time to reflect, I thought about my long climb up
the mountain of Masonry in search of light. I thought about the odds
against anyone's ever making it to the 33rd Degree. I realized that
in my case the odds have been even greater. I had made it by hard
work and dedication alone. Some men have an edge on selection
because of their wealth, political power or prominence. I had none
of these.
Like the day I had carried the man all the way to the top of
"Shaw Hill" between Camp Butner and Raleigh, I had made it to the
top of the Masonic mountain because I was willing to make the effort
required and refused to quit. Thinking of this, I felt particularly
good about it and wished my mother could know.
I had come a long way since leaving the front gate that terrible
day so many years ago. I had come the distance with no help from
Uncle Irvin. Who would have thought that the lonely walk, begun so
many years ago by that frightened 13-year-old boy, would have led to
this point? I had reached the pinnacle - made it all the way to the
top.
Some of the most prominent and influential men in the world would
undoubtedly be there to participate when I was given this ultimate
degree - for me - little Jimmy Shaw, who had gone to work at age
five and made it alone since age 13. They would be there to give the
33rd Degree to me. It was really a bit difficult to take it all in.
3 DAYS AT THE MOUNTAIN TOP
In order to receive the 33rd Degree it was necessary to go to
Washington. D.C. The initiation and related functions were to last
three days.
Since Bonnie could participate in practically none of the things
I would be doing each day, she decided not to go along. We were both
excited as I made preparations to leave. But I was not as excited as
I expected to be. The edge was taken off the excitement because, in
me, it was mixed with a considerable amount of conviction. Way down
deep there was a growing restlessness, an increasing conflict,
produced by the things the doctor had been sharing and by all the
Scripture I had been reading. Preparing to receive this "ultimate
honor" was not as thrilling as it might otherwise have been.
ARRIVING AT THE HOUSE OF THE TEMPLE
I flew into Washington National Airport and took a taxi to the
House of the Temple on Northwest 16th Street. Upon arriving at the
Temple I was met by a receptionist who asked if I were there to
receive the 33rd Degree. I was surprised to find a women in those
sacred Masonic precincts, but said that I was and showed her my
letter from the Supreme Council. She then told me that in order to
receive the degree, I would be expected to make a "minimum donation"
of a very large amount of money (at least it was a "very large"
amount for me). This took me completely by surprise for there had
not been a word about any such "minimum donation" in the letter sent
me by the Supreme Council. I didn't carry that much money with me
and had left my checkbook at